Life never works the way you plan it. As of recent, something happened in my life that I was not planning. I met someone. Someone that I really, really, really, really, really like. I met him at my work, of all places. We become friends. He’s the exact opposite of me, in almost every way. He’s tall, skinny, has about 4 piercings, puts way too much gel into his hair, and likes wearing really bright obnoxious colors, yet somehow looks fabulous. The problem? I like this guy. A lot. You could even go as far to say I have a crush on him. Honestly, there is no way there could be relationship with him. And yet, I want to. His values don’t match with mine, and he’s not that mature. Unbelievably still, I like him. Even though I know he’s been known to talk behind people’s backs and does stuff I don’t agree with. When I’m around him, I can’t breathe, I forget my name, and I can’t stop staring. I can’t understand it. I have no idea what I’m going to do, either. I hope these feelings will go away. Soon.
La Mia Vita Bella
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AnnaliseRedder(Lillianna) wrote @
Wow… keeping stuff from me, huh? Jk 
May I ask WHO you’re crushing on? And I suppose it’s YOUR turn to have guy trouble now. Oh the neverending cycle of our hearts betraying our minds! Will it ever end? Anyway, talk to ya l8r! (p.s. I emailed “you know who” to explain myself and the blog thing. I had to or it would’ve haunted me forever. I am SUCH an idiot!!!!)
xandrus wrote @
no, I’m not keeping anything from you, lol. 
I’ll tell you more, just not here since it IS the internet, and I think we both know what happens when you go mouthing off on the internet, so to speak. (in other words, I don’t want to have to put any more I’m sorry posts on my blog, lol!!!) by the way, I’m going to try and call you l8r today about quadshot and some other stuff, so yeah. oh yeah, what is with the AnnaliseRedder? I get the Annalise thing, since it’s your middle name, but what about the Redder? just curious.
AnnaliseRedder(Lillianna) wrote @
I was trying to come up with a alternate name for a profile at writersblock.com. They have sections for musicians, poets, lyricists, and other writers to share their stuff. I just came up with the last name cuz I thought it sounded cool Ok, you can call me, what time were you thinking about calling?
Xanabanana wrote @
Xanabanana shall call her bestestester bestest buddy after she finishes her horrendous study session for a stupid science final (can’t you tell I love finals-weee!!) so. that will probably be later this afternoon or this evening. oh, writersblock.com…I’m going to go have to sign up. sounds fun!! and yeah, I think redder is a cool last name. great idea.
Your bestester best buddy! wrote @
Oooh, fun! Yeah, I’ll be out this afternoon cuz my mom has to run errands. If you tell me what time you’ll be available, I can call you while sitting in the car being bored to death! Whichever works for you. Oh guess what, my dad says that at FedEx it’s snowing hard right now! Crazy, huh? We’re never going to get our summer goals done if we don’t have summer!
AnnaliseRedder(Lillianna) wrote @
Ooooh, fun! I’m going to be out and about today cuz my mom has some errands that need to be done. If you could tell me what time you’ll be available, I could call you while sitting in my car being bored to death! But whichever works for you. Oh guess what, my dad said that at FedEx it’s snowing hard right now! Crazy, huh? We’re never going to get our summer goals done if it’s never summer!
Xanabanana wrote @
you can call whenever. surprise me!! I’ll be at the house, so it’s not like you’d miss me or anything. I’m flexible, so whatever time works for you will be fine for me.
AnnaliseRedder(Lillianna) wrote @
K K! Oh yeah, check it out, I FINALLY figured out how to add copyright cymbols!
©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©!!!!!!!!
I have found a new power! I am Copyright Girl!!! Fighting against the evil of plagiarism! Defending the world from…
Alright, I’ve officially lost it. I think I need a Starbucks Java Chip Frapp.
Xanabanana wrote @
oh, yeah the © thing has been around for a loooong time. I found out about it in Latin class ironically and then started using it compulsively on all my lyrics. I’d have to agree about needing the frap. coffee always seems to make me feel like I haven’t lost it, when I already have. I just like to pretend I haven’t…
AnnaliseRedder(Lillianna) wrote @
Yeah, I know it’s been around, I just havn’t mustered up enough energy to look it up. Lazy me. How do you do it? I just use the character map.
Xanabanana wrote @
I hold down the alt button and then type in g. pretty fun. did you do anything for national shrimp scampi day? I forgot to ask you. I ended up doing a completely accidental imitation of one…it was interesting.
AnnaliseRedder(Lillianna) wrote @
Hmm… that doesn’t work on my computer, but I wish it did. Would be a lot simpler. And, you can’t believe how happy I am! Today is the first time I’ve cried from being happy! This is such a weird feeling… I don’t really know how to explain it. It’s not just that I’m glad he doesn’t hate me… I don’t know… can’t put my finger on it. Anyway, g2g to bed. Goodnight.
Xanabanana wrote @
you know, I didn’t really read the email you had sent him first until after we had talked on the phone. I was SHOCKED. I mean, wow. that was really, really, really, really BRAVE. you not only said sorry but told him everything else. that is brave, really really really brave. I don’t know if I could have done that. That was amazing, and I’m speechless. (well, I am but I’m not) I wish with guys that I liked I had taken the chance when it was there (and they were there too) and told them how I felt…now I can’t. But you did, and it’s really inspiring (so inspiring I’m writing a song on it!!)
AnnaliseRedder(Lillianna) wrote @
Thanks. I still feel a little stupid, though, for worrying so much. But who cares! He doesn’t! Anyway, you’re writing a song? Cool, I want to see it when you’re done!!!
Xanabanana wrote @
yeah, I’m kind of stuck in the middle of it all right now. it’s gotten a little too wordy and messy so I’m trying to rework it. with luck I’ll be done soon so I’ll try to bring it Sunday if I can.
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Sometimes we are alone and longing for company. Maybe he is the only one that look at you or talk to you. So you think that he is the one. If you are so different maybe he is not the one for you. Think it over!