I don’t know what to think. The pain has subsided into a dull ache. I can’t blame anyone for this but myself. I willingly shut the door between us and our memories. It’s time to move on. You know I don’t want to, right? If I had my way this never would have happened. Too much is at stake right now, though, to try to hold on. You’ve already walked away, and I’m the one begging you to change your mind.

I’m trying to forget. You sneak into my thoughts, though. It feels like I’ll never win this. I’m staring at this mountain I know I have to climb, but I’m stuck at the bottom too scared to even try, too scared to leave you and all we had between us.

It’s over, though. I’m holding onto something that’s already gone, like it’s going to save me. This is so hard. I’m not going to stay here forever. I can’t. Watch me. Eventually, I’ll pick myself up and start to climb over this pile of wasted dreams and see the sunshine again.

Before I leave, I want to thank you. You taught me so much, and I will always remember you and the fun we had. I hope to maybe run into you someday and maybe we’ll be able to sit and laugh like we used to, but not today. Today, my friend, I am doing one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I’m turning my back, and starting the long walk towards finding myself, without you, on my own. You know I’m terrible at this, but I can’t wait any longer. It’s time to say goodbye.